tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-40669776467554887252024-02-20T01:17:04.453-08:00Rexy BibleAdrianahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03709355285141165770noreply@blogger.comBlogger36125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4066977646755488725.post-13589965319275564552012-01-03T08:03:00.001-08:002012-01-03T08:03:46.691-08:00In Recoveryto my followers, i am no longer anorexic, i have given up, deicided it's a stupid idea. i'll never be skinny enough... so no more posts! bye bye!Adrianahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03709355285141165770noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4066977646755488725.post-49028413343854777842011-10-17T05:16:00.000-07:002011-10-17T05:16:26.785-07:00SGD Diet todayToday i am starting day one of the Skinny Girl Diet. Hopefully this will work! IF anyone is interested in doing it this is the plan:<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-gNI7-EE_hN0/TpwcNeMhiwI/AAAAAAAAC5E/gzhy9nudnd0/s1600/Screen+shot+2011-10-17+at+8.13.24+AM.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="366" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-gNI7-EE_hN0/TpwcNeMhiwI/AAAAAAAAC5E/gzhy9nudnd0/s400/Screen+shot+2011-10-17+at+8.13.24+AM.png" width="400" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">The rules for it are that you count calories but you can eat as much fruits and veggies as you want without adding them into your total for the day</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">you music exercise for at least 30 minuets a day 5 times a week</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">and any extra calories ingested must be burned off with cardio</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">wish me luck! :)</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">~Adriz</div>Adrianahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03709355285141165770noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4066977646755488725.post-18839244481965160772011-09-30T18:04:00.000-07:002011-09-30T18:04:22.825-07:00Tired of being fatUgh! I am so pissed at myself! i'm still 111! I feel so gross. I look at all my thinspo, and i want to be like them. I wish I could be more like them. I keep eating and eating like a fat pig and i can't stop! This sucks! Luckily I've found some Ana friends, and they're helping me when they can.<br />
I'm also stressed out of my fucking mind! I have to live with my ex-best friend because I have no electricity or gas at my house because my mom can't afford to pay for it. So seeing as my mom is good friends with my ex-best friend's mom we (me mom and brother) are living here, for the past month! Lately Ashley (ex-best friend) is treating me like garbage. Like we used to be really close until she became best friends with this girl i really don't like. now if i say hi to her in the hallway at school, it's like i don't even exist! She sees me waving, she knows i say hi and all she does is turn to Paula (the girl i don't like) and talks to her. She's just being so mean, and calling me fat and stupid behind my back! I really feel like shit.<br />
Then I have to go to EMT school on Tuesday and Thursday nights and that is making me study like crazy, and i have no time for anything else because I have to do well in school because I'm a junior and I want to get into NYU and i really need to do well. But I somehow have time to shove my fat face with food!<br />
Oh, and i got taken out of gym class because my blood sugar is always low in the morning and I can't do it (I'm diabetic) so now i can barely exercise!<br />
Now there's even more shit going on with my dad. I got a voicemail from him a few weeks ago and it was the audio of him beating up my 6 year old sister who I love to death. I played it for my therapist and she called CPS and now he knows I caused him to get into trouble and he's making my life a living hell. this is just sucking so much!<br />
All i want is a perfect body so maybe something in my fucked up life would be ok, but noooooo! this SUCKS!!!!Adrianahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03709355285141165770noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4066977646755488725.post-80156644228805752962011-09-23T08:34:00.000-07:002011-09-23T08:34:16.080-07:00PerfectI'm so happy! I dropped to 112.5!!!!! I weighed this morning and I got 112.5! I'm at school, and I'm supposed to be having lunch right now, but I decided to go to the library, and not eat :)<br />
Yesterday I had:<br />
Orange juice- 2 glasses (248 cals)<br />
cucumber salad- 5 cals<br />
eggs 2- 199 cals<br />
Total: 452 cals<br />
burned off 256 from walking<br />
consumed calories: 196!<br />
Today's goal is 500 cals. so far- none!Adrianahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03709355285141165770noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4066977646755488725.post-3239798909489269632011-09-22T05:15:00.000-07:002011-09-22T05:15:12.329-07:00Starting All OverI feel disgusting! I weigh 118 now! It's all because everyone knew and made me eat! Well no more. I started ABC last week, and today I'm doing 500 cals. LAst night i threw out all the food my mom bought me at the store a couple of days ago. SO when I go home there's nothing to eat, it's a half day so I can't get any lunch and I have no money to buy anything at a bake sale! I have to go to EMT class tonight, and I can't eat there. Hopefully I can reach my gw!Adrianahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03709355285141165770noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4066977646755488725.post-67508246854239317992011-06-04T08:46:00.000-07:002011-06-04T08:46:02.174-07:00Help me please!OK so I'm going to camp in August. There they make us EAT! I need to figure out how to not eat and not be noticed. I'm so mad!!!!! Why do i have to eat???????? They're gonna make me SOOOOO FAT!!!!! I need some help on how to figure out how to not be noticed. We have 3 meals a day and 2 snacks! Its sucks! and dinner is at 7 and theres a snack at 9 at night! its so much! and breakfast is at 7:30. What do I do???? HELP ME!!!!!!!!!Adrianahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03709355285141165770noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4066977646755488725.post-79276337477651297982011-06-01T17:15:00.000-07:002011-06-01T17:15:13.690-07:00They basically found out...So today i had my therapist. She noticed that I've lost weight... that's when it started.<br />
She kept saying that i need to gain weight and i need to eat more. i was so annoyed she told me that i was to eat right now, in front of her. I said there's nothing in the house to eat. She was saying 'you have no crackers, yogurt, nothing to eat?' and i said 'yes' then my mom came home. She talked to her and she said 'no there is stuff in the house' and i got busted. They made me have cherries. the put some in a bowl but i only had about 4 or 5. Then i had some water and juice. I was pissed off that they were telling me to eat. I tried saying i was a picky eater, and then that i feel full all the time. They didn't believe that. then i said that the meds i take (for seizures, depression, and head aches) was making me loose my appetite. They want me to change my to make me hungry. I don't care! I would just say i take the meds to make them shut up. meds were an excuse for now... i just hate eating, They basically said i was anorexic and i need help and i need to eat. then my mom asked me to think about what i want to eat and she hasn't asked me since. I lied to them and said i had that i had an uncrustable for lunch, when i had nothing. (I was quite proud of my self (:) It was great! I'm basically going to be force fed, and i HATE that. looks like Mia is going to be my best friend for a whileAdrianahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03709355285141165770noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4066977646755488725.post-65453506706178104042011-05-31T17:05:00.001-07:002011-05-31T17:05:46.988-07:00Food Friends and Family Can Go Fuck Themselves Up A Tree!!!!!!My friend pissed me off so much! Check out my other blog (a day in the life) for the story. and she says i dont eat enough. my mom says i dont eat enough. the school nurse says i dont eat enough and they're all making me eat! FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!!!!Adrianahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03709355285141165770noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4066977646755488725.post-69068992227914166332011-05-31T05:04:00.000-07:002011-05-31T05:04:09.394-07:00Summer Is A Devil Bitch!Well as we all know yesterday was memorial day, which marks the unofficial first day of summer. And what happens during summer? BBQs, swimming, and of course all the gross food that goes along with it!<br />
Yesterday my best friend had a BBQ at her house and i of course went. And guess what SO MUCH FOOD!!!!! And i was stupid and gave in...<br />
It just started with a pickle... Then i had to go and have a seizure and then my mom shoved food down my throat, and that was the end of me!<br />
I ate. and i ate A LOT!!!!<br />
That is why today May 31, 2011 marks the first official day of my juice/water fast! All i will ingest is water and juice. Either apple or berry. No acidic juices because that will fuck me up BIG time.<br />
On the other hand I'm going to start another book. I plan to call it loosing control. I still need to finish my 'She Loves You' Beatles story. I JUST finished my Beatles Fairy Tale one and i need to put it up on Quibblo soon. I might go to the library after school (great excuse to walk :D) and post it then. I need to stay away from home as much as possible because i don't really have a trigger TIME, i have a trigger PLACE.<br />
And it just happens to be home. Its because i can eat like a pig and it would be in the privacy of my own home. At least at school and other places i can feel guiltyAdrianahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03709355285141165770noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4066977646755488725.post-38753465034159766302011-05-28T18:23:00.000-07:002011-05-28T18:23:41.503-07:00FUCK ME!!!!I'm so stupid! My grandma decided to take me out to lunch today but i got a spinach salad so i had no calories then. I gave into hunger though... When i got home, my mom went out and i was home alone. I had some microwave mac n' cheese (260 cals) and a fruit grain bar (100 cals). 360 CALS!!!!! But i cleaned my room, ran a little, danced, and walked and i burned 175 cals. Then i had to go to a party and there was SO MUCH FOOD! I had a little mac 'n cheese and about 1 fork full of rice. I threw it out and then i Mia-ed it so i got rid of those calories. I had water, and then i had NO cake or ice cream even though my mom and friend were pushing it on me. I weighed my self after i Mia-ed and i am 110 lbs. I went from 116 to 110. My mom, grandparents, friends, and school nurse say i've lost weight but its obvious I'm still a huge fat ass!!! I mean my stomach is is getting flatter but my ass and thighs are so fucking big!!! I hate it. We're running the mile next week in school and i am so excited to run off cals and then i won't have any lunch. I never eat breakfast, and MAYBE a little dinner or a snack when i get home. I plan to exercise a lot and if i eat I will Mia. I now use Mia as a punishment now and it is rather effective. I stay away from food because i hate throwing up!!! It's nasty but it gets rid of fat and cals. It's so gross that i eat so much!!! My friends and family keep saying i need to more and I'm getting too thin. They ask me if i'm trying to loose weight and i keep say it's just happening. They actually buy it!!! It's going good so far and i hope they won't notice when i actually loose a lot of weight.<br />
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I'm going to camp in August and it's diabetes camp and they basically make you eat. I don't know what I'll do. I have to learn Ana tricks by heat because i can't risk someone reading my Rexy Bible while I'm there. And if i eat I can't MIa because someone has to go to the bathroom with you and it would be obvious that i would be throwing up because there aren't many people in there during activities. We shower very little there and it would be too late to Mia. Hopefully they don't find out. I have more will power when people are around and i will be there for 2 weeks so i will not be eating a lot for 2 weeks. Even though the camp food is REALLY good i have to resist. I don't know what I'll do for breakfast. There is a salad bar during lunch and dinner so i can have that then and i will just pick at it. Also there is a lot of meat served so since I'm veggie i can get out of eating most of the food. Also I'm going on the hike and rafting trip so that will burn a lot of cals. I will eat as little as possible. I may bring my rexy bible but i HAVE to hide it. I hope that no one will find it.<br />
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Then when i get back i will hopefully have a more will power because i have been a good Ana for 2 weeks and i can be so skinny. When i come home from camp I usually am really fat but i intend to be skinny. We also go swimming everyday. That will burn cals. We do a lot of sports so that will burn cals. Then sometimes we have a choice of arts and crafts and some sports and i MUST choose sports. if i wanna loose weight i have to make sacrifices!!!! I want to be perfect. I don't care if it hurts. I want a perfect body, i want a perfect soul. Skinny girls are beautiful. There is this fancy dinner at the end of camp and a dance afterwards and you can bring a 'special friend' AKA a date and maybe this year i will have a date!<br />
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The guy who i think likes me did something AMAZING in Friday. He saw me in the hallway and it was from behind. He tapped me on the shoulder and i turned around and he kissed my cheek!!! :) I was SOOOO happy! I'm glad that someone likes me and now i have more of a reason to be thin. If i want this guy to keep liking me i have to be perfect. I hate being so FAT!!!! I may have lost some stomach chub but there is still some and i need to get rid of it!!!!<br />
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I hope i can loose a lot and get rid of it all!!!!Adrianahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03709355285141165770noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4066977646755488725.post-91514998369486100242011-05-26T15:09:00.000-07:002011-05-26T15:09:38.732-07:00FUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!I keep eating! Mother fucker!!!!!!<br />
I have decided to make an alter ego for my Ana blog. A girl with will power and is skinny and beautiful. She looks like Pattie Boyd (A model from the 60s. My favourite thinspo) and she's perfect. Her name is now Madeline<br />
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Yesterday:<br />
food-<br />
Crackers- 200<br />
Veggies- 0<br />
Brownie (EEK I'M SO FAT!!!!!) 200<br />
400 FUCKING CALS!!!!!!<br />
Exercise-<br />
Walking- 171<br />
Total: 229 CALS!!!! FUCK!!!!<br />
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Today:<br />
Food:<br />
Peanuts- 260<br />
Crackers- 200 (MIA)<br />
Total so far: 260<br />
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I went home sick yesterday during school. I've had this monster head ache for 3 weeks now! It's put my appetite off a little bit. I slept for a while so i didn't eat then. I woke up a few hours later and my friend invited my family over for dinner (My thoughts: FUCK!) My friend's mom notoriously makes A LOT of food for dinner. She made: Tortillini with pesto, home made pizza, grilled chicken, chicken parm, carrots with brown sugar, italian bread, then plain veggies. I said i didn't feel good so i didn't want a lot of food. I took about 1/2 a hand full of black olives, 4 or 5 carrots and about 5 cherry tomatoes. Then my friend's mom throws some bread and pizza on my plate!!!! I said it was too much on my stomach. Then came desert...<br />
There was: Angel food cake, brownies, strawberries with sugar, ice cream, whipped cream, cherries, and sprinkles for the ice cream. At first i said no to it because i still felt sick. Then i was stupid and snuck a brownie!!!!!! I felt so gross!!!!! My friend (Ashley) said she's on a diet now and she is cal counting. She said she has 2000 cals a DAY! A DAY!!!!!!!!! It's gross! I don't know how she does it!<br />
I decided i'm not eating anymore today. I've made Mia a punishment if i eat. I hate throwing up but it's nessacary if i eat like a pig.<br />
I've lost about 2 pounds now I'm down to 113. My stomach is about 27.5-28 inches around. I need to loose more!!!!!<br />
Other than Ana, I've been sick :( I've had this monster head ache and i've been always tired. But i have a job on Saturday and I'm face painting at a birthday party. Ashley is coming and she's bringing her friend David with her. Ashley is going to be taking pictures at the party, and i got her the job doing it. I'm like her job pimp. It's supposed to be me and her doing these jobs, not anyone else! So she drags David along with her (I'm not friends with David but it's not like i don't like him) and now she's going to be talking to him the whole time and I'll wind up looking like a loser with no one to talk to again!!! Ugh i really don't like Ashley treating me like this!!!<br />
Well on the upside there is this guy in my school (I don't know his name yet! XP) but he says hi to me all the time and tells me I'm pretty and he hugged me the other day :) He said 'I like you so much! You're so pretty!" I'm so happy he said that but i've never really talked to him! Next time i see him I'll try to talk to him! Maybe having him around me will make me want to lose weight and turn me off of food. the best<br />
part was that when he hugged me he lifted me up a little bit :) Oh my god! I'm SOOO EXCITED :D!!!<br />
I really like him :) Having someone who likes me is great! <3 I can't stop smiling when i think about him but i don't when i look at how FAT I am! Well wish me Luck this week!<br />
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Love,<br />
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Madeline Ana<br />
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~Thinspo Pics~<br />
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<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-5MekOM5Nxpk/Td7N2z5BvzI/AAAAAAAAB04/ZoxwvWOg9bc/s1600/tumblrbathingsuit.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-5MekOM5Nxpk/Td7N2z5BvzI/AAAAAAAAB04/ZoxwvWOg9bc/s1600/tumblrbathingsuit.jpg" /></a></div>Adrianahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03709355285141165770noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4066977646755488725.post-17598187563682852082011-05-23T14:21:00.000-07:002011-05-23T14:21:48.893-07:005/23/11I'm such a pig! I ate like crazy yesterday! I had a PB+J sandwich, toast and a bunch of food from PF Chang's! I went up to 113!!! I had nothing but gum today and i plan on nothing else today. I hope my mom doesn't make me eat. I have a head ache and my stomach hurts so that's an excuse. This shit is ridiculous!!!<br />
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Well there's someone at my school who likes me :) I need to be thin if he's going to keep on liking me. By the end of the week i want to drop down to at least 108. I also have a new plan. I want will fast during the week and eat a max of 500 cals during the weekend. I need to find more distractions to keep me from eating like a cow.<br />
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My brother said i looked like a cow the other day and that day i purged like crazy, stopped eating and took a lax. God damn me! I hate this, i have stopped eating lunch, no breakfast, and small dinner. all i drink is tea, water, and low cal juice.<br />
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So far i have been working on picture blogs for each Beatle and i need to know more about them. that will keep me busy for a while.Adrianahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03709355285141165770noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4066977646755488725.post-44075179587799813262011-05-03T08:58:00.000-07:002011-05-03T09:00:31.135-07:00Thinspo pic!<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-XgBYMoSMsiA/TcAmkmftQiI/AAAAAAAAAY4/oyPbAxbMv5I/s1600/Screen+shot+2011-05-03+at+11.59.53+AM.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="640" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-XgBYMoSMsiA/TcAmkmftQiI/AAAAAAAAAY4/oyPbAxbMv5I/s640/Screen+shot+2011-05-03+at+11.59.53+AM.png" width="528" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
</div>This picture is a constant reminder that i wanna be perfect. The words on the side are lyrics that remind me that i want to and need to be perfect.Adrianahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03709355285141165770noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4066977646755488725.post-726056752022047512011-05-03T06:14:00.000-07:002011-05-03T06:14:44.889-07:00Lyrics from a song that makes me think of Ana and my Ana PlaylistPlaylist (all by the Beatles)<br />
You Really Got A Hold On Me (Ana is now my life)<br />
Sexy Sadie (I want to BE sexy sadie)<br />
Not A Second Time (Not a second time for me to eat)<br />
Misery(a lyric is 'without her I will be in misery. I would be in misery without Ana)<br />
It Won't Be Long (If i stay with Ana it won't be long 'til I'm thin)<br />
If I Needed Someone (This is in reference to Mia. If I need to purge i would go to Mia)<br />
I'm A Loser (I am because I'm fat)<br />
I'll Cry Instead (I would cry if I couldn't Ana)<br />
I Will (I will always be Ana)<br />
Help! (I need Ana's Help!)<br />
A Hard Day's Night (I have a hard day's night if I eat. I'm guilty and can't sleep)<br />
Got To Get You Into My Life (I want Ana in my life)<br />
Eight Days A Week (Ana is with me eight days a week)<br />
Don't Let Me Down (Ana speaking, telling me not to let her down)<br />
She's Got The Devil In Her Heart (Ana will be mean to me if I eat)<br />
Chains (Ana has me in chains to make me remember I can't eat)<br />
Ana (Obvious much?)<br />
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Lyrics:<br />
Song: perfectly<br />
From movie Pixel Perfect<br />
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<div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, 'Times New Roman';"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, 'Times New Roman';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 16px;">I wanna be perfect,<br />
But I'm me<br />
I wanna be flawless,<br />
But you see<br />
Every little crack<br />
Every chip,<br />
Every dent<br />
Every little mistake,<br />
I wanna be perfect<br />
Just like you,<br />
But there's only so much that a girl can do<br />
When I look in the mirror,<br />
It makes sense to me,<br />
Perfectly<br />
Perfectly</span></span></div>Adrianahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03709355285141165770noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4066977646755488725.post-27657899815211040672011-05-03T05:28:00.000-07:002011-05-03T05:28:36.834-07:005/2/11Food:<br />
Uncrustable<br />
1 bowl Special K<br />
1/8 of fat free muffin (MIA)<br />
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Drink:<br />
Diet Snapple<br />
Water with crystal light<br />
plain water<br />
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Exercise-<br />
run in gym<br />
crunches<br />
jumping jacks<br />
walked to and from library<br />
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I went to school and 4th period had gym so i walked (i would have ran but i have a bad blister on my ankle and i can't wear shoes with backs. Then came home, did jumping jacks, and crunches. then i walked to the library and spent about an hour there. then walked back. yesterday in total i burned 427 cals. I think i'm gonna drop ABC and just do 500 cal a day diet and fasting if I can. I've been doing better because of Ana buddies. I keep on trying! Wish me luck!Adrianahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03709355285141165770noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4066977646755488725.post-71374290037368774752011-05-02T05:04:00.000-07:002011-05-02T05:31:08.037-07:005/1/11Food:<div>Pizza (Mia)</div><div>Pretzels</div><div>Slim Fast Bar</div><div><br /></div><div>Drink:</div><div>Water</div><div>Water with Crystal light</div><div>Apple Juice</div><div><br /></div><div>Exercise:</div><div>Jumping Jacks</div><div>Crunches</div><div>Lunges</div><div>Sprints</div><div>Dancing</div><div>Cycling</div><div>Waking</div><div><br /></div><div>I ate a lot and i felt so fat. I Mia'd the pizza and now i don't think i ever want to eat Pizza ever again! Talking to a lot of people so they're helping. i think some people's suspicions are being lowered. </div>Adrianahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03709355285141165770noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4066977646755488725.post-68437106771436859412011-05-01T08:41:00.001-07:002011-05-01T08:45:39.946-07:00YesterdayWent on a 4 mile hike and burned about 600 cals! then no dinner. he water today, 1/3 of a muffin. might have some juice later. probably gunna exercise like fuck later. I also dropped down to 109! only 9 more pounds to go. i also got a lot off my belly. ABC is really working for me! i'm just switching cals for today and tomorrow. so 400 today and 300 tomorrow. wish me luck!Adrianahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03709355285141165770noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4066977646755488725.post-10744650202583420162011-04-30T10:00:00.000-07:002011-04-30T10:03:59.662-07:004/30/11Going on a hike today. the should burn a lot. On ABC it's 500 cals today. So far i had like an eighth of a slice of pizza which is about 50 and i probably burned that with the crunches and jumping jacks i did. i also did a lot of cleaning. I purged yesterday and my brother heard me! Now they might know! I squeezed my fat ass into a size 2 pair of pants. now my gut is hanging and it makes me want to loose weight and not eatAdrianahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03709355285141165770noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4066977646755488725.post-21547940101991516042011-04-29T11:19:00.000-07:002011-04-29T11:24:04.519-07:00Worst Assignment Ever!!!!English sucked! We had to write a paragraph each about what our favourite meal and least favourite meal are. I wrote mine about 2 disgusting meals to try to evade the craving of food. However, when the rest of the people in my class read their paragraphs it made me SO hungry! Thank god there was no food for me to get at! It was the worst assignment for me. Well i got back the memoir essay and my teacher LOVED it! So i'm happy and it kinda took away my hunger :) soon i'll be going home and going to my plan :)Adrianahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03709355285141165770noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4066977646755488725.post-43598762026213989632011-04-29T08:49:00.000-07:002011-04-29T09:07:24.990-07:00Starting ABC todaySince I have Ana Buddies now and have my thinspo's set I think I'm ready for ABC. Today's objective: 500 Cal. so far had it all at lunch. No other food today. Gotta go pick up glucose tabs for those pesky lows. Also gotta get more baking soda. Also i figured when i get home. i'll do some crunches, jumping jacks, and sprints in my room. rest for a bit, the go to the library. spend about an hour there. Come home, do homework, read, watch Monty Python, and sleep. I have a few new Ana buddies and they're helping me out. SO far the nurse is a little suspicious of Ana and mom and Ashley maybe. Today i burned 207 calories so far. i figure about 200 more walking to the library. crunches, jumping jacks, and sprints are about another 200. I want to burn more calories than i ate so far today. if mom makes me eat I'll Mia again. It was so easy yesterday to Mia! I felt so proud. and i don't think i'll ever touch Special K again. It was so nasty coming up! Grapes too. I'll eat celery later if anything. Glucose tabs have no calories so i can basically live on those and water. Today has been good so far and I don't have any suspicion today. I went on a walk yesterday and that burned about 100 cals.Adrianahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03709355285141165770noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4066977646755488725.post-60727693843644956872011-04-28T17:10:00.000-07:002011-04-28T17:14:43.339-07:00More good news!I had my first real purging session today! had special K and i got rid all of it! mom wasn't home so no one heard me :) i felt so good after!<div>Ate:</div><div>Uncrustable: 210</div><div>Special K: 150 (MIA)</div><div><br /></div><div>Drank:</div><div>Water. Lots of water</div><div><br /></div><div>Exercise:</div><div>Sprints- 30</div><div>crunches- 100</div><div>jumping jacks- 50</div><div>brisk walk- 15 minuets</div><div>walking all day: 6, 338 steps</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>Adrianahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03709355285141165770noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4066977646755488725.post-22344919861136407282011-04-27T17:30:00.000-07:002011-04-27T17:31:19.302-07:00Neg Cal FoodsFood with Neg Cals! Yay!<div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: small; -webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 1px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 1px; "><p>Vegetables:<br />Artichokes<br />Asparagus<br />Green beans<br />String beans<br />Beets<br />Beet greens<br />Broccoli<br />Brussels sprouts<br />Cabbage<br />Chinese cabbage<br />Carrots<br />Cauliflower<br />Celeriac<br />Celery<br />Chervil<br />Chicory<br />Chives<br />Squash<br />Tomato (fresh/canned)<br />Corn (cob/canned)<br />Cucumbers<br />Dandelion greens<br />Dill pickles<br />Eggplant<br />Endive<br />Garlic<br />Kale<br />Kohlrabi<br />Leeks<br />Lettuce<br />Mushrooms<br />Mustard greens<br />Okra<br />Onions<br />Parsley leaves<br />Turnips<br />Watercress<br />Parsnips (raw/boiled)<br />Peas<br />Peppers (green/red)<br />Pickles (sour/sweet)<br />Pumpkin<br />Radishes<br />Rappini<br />Red cabbage<br />Rhubarb<br />Rutabagas<br />Sauerkraut<br />Salsify<br />Scallions<br />Shallots<br />Sorrel<br />Spinach</p><p>Fruits:<br />Apples<br />Apricots<br />Blackberries<br />Blueberries<br />Cantaloupe<br />Cherries<br />Cranberries<br />Currants<br />Damson plum<br />Figs<br />Fruit salad (fresh/canned)<br />Grapefruit<br />Grapes<br />Honeydew melon<br />Huckleberries<br />Kiwi<br />Kumquats<br />Lemons<br />Limes<br />Loganberries<br />Mangoes<br />Muskmelons<br />Nectarines<br />Oranges<br />Papaya<br />Peaches<br />Pears<br />Pineapple<br />Pomegranates<br />Prunes<br />Quince<br />Raspberries<br />Strawberries<br />Tangerines<br />Watermelon</p></span></div>Adrianahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03709355285141165770noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4066977646755488725.post-64319227989368150512011-04-27T16:34:00.000-07:002011-04-27T16:36:18.769-07:00WOOHOO!!!Yay!!! All i had today was water, celery, and PB crackers!!! I burned at least 542 calories!!!!! Now i will live on water, celery, and glucose tabs! I'm thinking 1 meal a day maybe half a meal/snack. I'm so proud today :)Adrianahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03709355285141165770noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4066977646755488725.post-86438639235651137052011-04-26T09:51:00.000-07:002011-04-26T09:52:45.746-07:00F***!!!!!I think from eating a good rexy (celery and special K bar [Mia]) lunch i'm having little seizures :( Fuck!!!!!Adrianahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03709355285141165770noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4066977646755488725.post-44779040674223733012011-04-22T14:59:00.000-07:002011-04-22T15:01:45.054-07:00YAY!!!!I MIA-ED!!!!!!!!! FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!Adrianahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03709355285141165770noreply@blogger.com0